Parents make Leslie angry!!! RAAWWWRRRRR!!!

It's time for a new journal entry... uh, here it is. Tah dah!

It's been a while since I've last posted. Completely skipped the month of April and jumped right into May. Oh well, I never much cared for April anyway. It's just wedged in between the two "M" months. At any rate, here's May, the last three weeks of school. I'm in the home stretch. Then summer, and then, senior year. Wow, this is coming at me faster than I thought. That, and now I'm thinking about college. College scares me. I'm not certain if I want to jump right into a university. But I'm also not allowed to live at home after I graduate. I'd rather stay here and bum off my parents, but I don't think they'd be too happy with that.

Over all, I suppose school's been going alright for me. That is, if your deffinition of alright is getting slapped in the face, then yes, it's been going alright.

I saw my friend Jen today. I haven't seen her since the end of last semester becasue she graduated early. That was awesome.

Dood! POTC3 comes out so freaking soon. I'm excited. It comes out the day after school lets out so freakin sweet!!!!!

Piano recital??? I don't think so. I don't really want to participate, but I'm almost forced into doing it. Not necesarily forced, but pressured. . . a lot.

In all honestly, this journal really isn't to update, it's to procrastinate. Grr. Well, off to do a few too many projects. Why do they all have to be due now??? GL!

Any way. Peace!

I had a really crappy day, but for some reason I'm really freaking happy right now. I just got through practicing the piano and I absolutly love the new song that I'm learning. It's beautiful and passionate and just plain wonderful. I walk away from that song with a happy feeling. It just puts me in a good place where nothing can go wrong. It's like it makes all the bad aspects of my day just dissappear. I'm going to go back and learn more before my piano teacher gets here because I want to finish the song so I can work on fine tuning it instead of learning it. That's really the most enjoyable part of playing the piano any way. Tweeking your songs until they're just right.

So I'm in an all around good mood right now. Amazing how music can effect human emotions like this. This has got to be what love feels like.

Psychology depicts love as a cognitive and social phenomenon. Psychologist Robert Sternberg formulated a triangular theory of love and argued that love has three different components: Intimacy, Commitment, and Passion. Intimacy is a form by which two people can share secrets and various details of their personal lives. Intimacy is usually shown in friendships and romantic love affairs. Commitment, on the other hand, is the expectation that the relationship is going to last forever. The last and most common form of love is sexual attraction and passion. Passionate love is shown in infatuation as well as romantic love. This led researchers such as Yela[citation needed] to further refine the model by separating Passion into two independents components: Erotic Passion and Romantic Passion.

Following developments in electrical theories, such as Coulomb's law, which showed that positive and negative charges attract, analogs in human life were developed, such as "opposites attract". Over the last century, research on the nature of human mating, such as in evolutionary psychology, agree that pairs unite or attract to each other owing to a combination of opposites attract, e.g. people with dissimilar immune systems tend to attract, and likes attract, such as similarities of personality, character, views, etc.[9] In recent years, various human bonding theories have been developed described in terms of attachments, ties, bonds, and or affinities.

Some Western authorities disaggregate into two main components, the altruistic and the narcissistic. This view is represented in the works of Scott Peck, whose works in the field of applied psychology explored the definitions of love and evil. Peck maintains that love is a combination of the"'concern for the spiritual growth of another", and simple narcissism.[10] In combination, love is an activity, not simply a feeling.

(thank you wikipedia)

Well, that's it for right now.

<3 Peace!!!

I don't really know what to say about my life right now. I'm failing at something I'm actually putting effort into and that really gets to me after a while. I used to be so good at math. I don't know what's gone wrong. If I could turn back time, I would do things right, but the sad part is, I can't. So needless to say, pre cal is a bitch. If anyone out there happens to be good at it, help would be much appreciated. Right now we're paying a tutor and I'm getting help from random people as well, but that's still not working. I have a test tomorrow and I dont' know what the hell I'm doing. Like, I understand the problem and I understand why people do what they do to solve it, but I wouldn't think of it myself. WTH is wrong with me??? Gah! It's just frustrating.

That, among other things have been frustrating me. My dad chooses to be an ass hole and I know a lot of kids say that, but meh, what can I say, we just don't get along. He's lost my respect and it's hard. I think I don't get along with him because I'm so much like him. I'm sure that if I met myself, I'd hate myself as a person.

Among other personal issues that I won't post here for fear that the person I'm talking about will read this. . .that's life as of right now.

I didn't sleep well last night. I woke up and realized I was searching for my pillow and then discovered that it was on top of me. Grawr. When I looked at the clock it was 20 minutes before I had to get up. I hate it when I do that because it's like sleep lost. So I slept for the last half of first period and all of second. I very blatently skipped zero hour. I walked by the teacher in the hall. Oops, if she askes me tomorrow though I'll just tell her that I was feeling sick so I was going to the cafeteria to get some water and then I started throwing up. So yeah, that's my day. And pre cal sucks. Physics is ok. We're just reviewing IPC right now. It's not too bad.

Bryce found my hat!!! I've been missing it since the summer when I loaned it to Mandy. That made me happy.

Alright well, homework. Erg.